Friday, September 19, 2014

Not so far from yesterday

31 days without him and counting. Her mind does it unconsciously, every night she adds a mark in her wall. Each mark is for one less hug she could´ve gotten, another memory that no matter how hard it tries time won´t take away.

She keeps flying, only to hit the wall that keeps her from going back to him every time the wings get bigger. That flight is a torture as well as a gift, she savors the good moments with sweetness, but can´t avoid tasting the sour flavor that the bad ones have.

And it seems it was yesterday when it rained, yesterday when they lived the goodbye that their love story was determined to tell. It was moments ago when he squeezed her hand reassuring that the ashes would never be carried by the wind, even if the flames went out.

Every step she takes carries her father from that tale, but her heart doesn´t anyone else come near it, it still belongs to him, and it has built up a wall to keep anyone from going in.

Her mornings are a lament for having to walk without reaching his arms, a moment of melancholy for watching the cars go by and not seeing his face in the window.

Hours, days and weeks will go by and maybe the bricks that protect her heart will fall down slowly, but marks will keep being added in the wall next to her bed. And who knows, maybe a smile once in a while.

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